Destruction before Growth

When I began this journey attempting to say nothing negative about anyone I joked with a friend "Wouldn't it be hilarious if I try this and it completely destroys my life?"  Well, maybe there was a little bit of truth in that joke.  A spiritual journey seeks to build a new life and to build a new life the old life must be set aside.  Sometimes in life we must be willing to set aside even things we love, maybe especially things we love, in order to make room for a better self.  I am in the process of making some big changes in my life and I would be dishonest if I didn't admit that it is this spiritual journey that has been a driving force in bringing those changes about.  I cannot clearly see my future from this point in the journey, but I am choosing to have faith.  Wouldn't it be great if we could always see what was waiting for us BEFORE we let go of what we have?  However, I don't believe life works that way.  Sometimes we reach a point in our lives where we know we must let go, BEFORE we can even glimpse what the future holds.  It is in those times of unsure change that the spirit of negativity attempts to take control.  I am saying no to negativity, no to fear, but in order to do that I have found it imperative to say yes to faith.  In honesty I have no idea where this journey is taking me, but I know that part of me I am attempting to leave behind will not be missed.